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Dear Reader,

I have come to a point in my life where I have considered for the first time asking for help. I have told myself in the past that I would never beg and that if I was that hard up I would dumpster dive, or something like that. I didn’t know then what I understand now. That life can become much more complicated than that.

I don’t really know how to do this so I will start with my current situation.

My wife and I have recently moved from North Dakota to Texas using our last dime to make it. Her mother has opened her house to us to help us so we can try and get back on our feet. Between health problems, medical debt, marital problems and an ever increasing cost of living we just couldn’t keep up anymore.

Right now I am looking for work but am unsure of my ability to keep a job at this stage considering my health problems.

I have Hashimotos, Asperger’s, tourettes syndrome, anxiety conditions and major depression. I suffer from panic attacks almost daily as well as palpitations despite being on medication. I have currently been recommended over to cardiology, but having no income or insurance, I cannot afford the cost of testing.

My wife has a minimum wage job she just got hired onto. She has bills and debt as well and she doesn’t earn very much.

Right now I doordash as much as I can but our vehicle is very high mileage, is not fuel efficient and the area does not see very much traffic for doordash. I’m lucky to take home 30$ a night. This barely pays for the few monthly bills I have including my phone bill, my cats renal diet and my car insurance, but it’s all I have at the moment.

My cat is 14 and her name is Adara. I’ve had her since before she was 1. She is very special to me and I need to make sure she she is cared for. She is my ‘certified emotional support animal’. Last year she was diagnosed with kidney disease so she requires a special diet that I get from the vet.

I am currently on a wait-list for ssdi and I am hoping I will get accepted. I used to be on it, but I wanted more from life, so probably against my better judgement I got a job and began my life trying to build something for myself. As you can see it didn’t really pan out that way.

I recognize asking for help it is unlikely any will ever come. But maybe it is worth it to at least try just in case by some miracle it does. I have to exhaust all resources within my power.

Thank you for reading